Since I am socially awkward, taking me out on coffee or dinner date the first time is way too awkward for me. I constantly worry about the way I’m sitting or how long I’m supposed to be looking at your face, or how long I’m not supposed to be looking. I like to be sitting or standing next to you. Save this for later, when I’m more comfortable around you (:
I generally like to go on car rides, and car rides to somewhere outside of town. Take me somewhere scenic so we can sit down and chat. Or a cute little town to walk around in. I love hiking, too, up a mountain, a trail by the river. Bike rides are also fun, nothing extreme just maybe around a park or something. A night adventure in Boston or the likes. Any of these are completely acceptable (:
But don’t take me to the gym..or to the amusement park…Meh.
Day 11: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Ugh this question…okay..
I am single. I prefer to be single because I do not have the emotional capacity to let anyone in my life romantically. I realize that when I am in a relationship though, whether serious or not, I tend to become selfish and be in an emotional haywire, and everything seems to revolve around the relationship. My school work, friends, church, everything else becomes secondary so for the sake of the other person, and for myself, it’s better that we stay friends. And purely friends. I’ve been in casual relationships and they didn’t work out. It doesn’t help me become a better a person and I don’t think it does to the other person either. And since I’ve been working on being more spiritually involved, this behavior definitely hinders my relationship with God. My dating history also certainly discourages me from trying to date again, not for a while anyway. And that’s okay. I will be okay. I just need to learn to focus on other things, like my friends, church, school, and my job…I want to work on not burning bridges anymore? I realize the importance of keeping in touch and being on good terms with people…I see burning bridges as a sign of cowardice, unless really it is for the best.
I drink. I smoke cigarettes sometimes. I tried weed a couple of times. I’m not curious to try anything else. I don’t care for people doing weed anymore, I used to be really against it. It’s the only drug really I’m okay with people using, although I wouldn’t want to know if my children were smoking weed. But with all this in moderation, of course.
1. The Monday when I get back to school. 2. What major I’m gonna be in. 3. What happens if I run into you. Or you into me. Or if we don’t. Just thinking about this makes me want to puke. Time is running out. Or time is already up.